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A retreat sunrise brings a miracle

Diane Galloway lost her son Sean. She attended the first Sacred Sorrows Mother's Retreat in March 2022.

Oceans run deep in the Los Altos Mountains.

I arrived full of anxiety, not knowing what to expect from this Sacred Sorrows Retreat. I had not heard of, nor attended a retreat for mothers who have lost a child. This was a four-day, three-night stay away from my comfy spot--out of my comfort zone, or so I thought.

The minute I stepped out of the car, there stood Rita to greet me. Such a big smile she had! I was wondering why she was smiling so big. I was a nervous wreck, not knowing what lay ahead for me!

I was aware we were going to be busy. The retreat description said we would be going on walks, on hikes, being in nature, and having companionship with other mothers who had lost a child.

So many unanswered questions I had brought along with me. The foremost question I had was, “How does a mother heal after losing a child?” I sure didn’t know! My son, Sean, has been gone 8 years now, and I’m still grieving him so heavily! How can I keep going on and living when Sean isn't here to live on earth with me anymore?

Secondly, I was mad. Angry at God. And God knew it! I had told Him plenty of times! (Trust me on that one.) I battled with God. Even though my faith was still in God, the Holy Trinity, I was hurting big-time inside! Devastated!

Grief, anger, hurt, still keeping the faith, but so bewildered about how to move on with a positive purpose in life.

This is where the mystery comes in--the magical mystery of Christ, our Father in Heaven. Sacred Sorrows is a part of the journey--my own journey, which I have to travel on, in, and through. It is my and Sean’s journey, with the Lord leading the way.

Through Rita and her organization, Sacred Sorrows, there came healing! Unbelievable! There was work to be done. God’s words were coming through to me, though. I could actually feel and hear God speak to me. And I was finally able to listen. Breakthroughs in my walk with Christ and these heavy burdens of grief were happening. I can’t explain it all! A lot of digging deep inside! Getting as close to God as possible! All these new feelings were happening inside of me. Getting into the Word. Going to chapel, speaking to Father John, watercoloring!

My miracle happened. It happened during our Sunrise Service on the last day of this beautiful retreat. Sunday morning, we woke up early to have a Sunrise Service on top of the Los Altos mountains, where one can see such beauty! The mountains envelop you, surround you everywhere. Nature abounds. Quiet and serene. It’s a holy place. Birds, flowers, trees, God’s peace is there!

My anger was lifted off my shoulders! It happened! I couldn’t believe it! I know the exact moment it happened. Sitting down by myself on the ground where I had chosen to sit, listening to nature, no one talking, just peace and prayer, and then… the winds were gentle that morning, a cool breeze in the air. The wispy grass blew in the wind, and there it happened!

My anger, resentment, and deep sadness that I had held onto for so long…gone. No joke. I actually lifted my head to look around to see if anyone else saw or felt what I had! Haha! I really did, though! I noticed every one of my eleven sisters, whom I had come to know and love in these last few days, quietly praying and still in their own thoughts. They didn’t know!

Never before in my life--and I am 64 years old--have I ever felt this way! Never EVER!

A true miracle happened to me! God’s blessings came over me so powerfully. It swept my emotions to a whole new place and transformed me into a new being! Exhilarating is the best word that comes to my mind.

I felt like a leash had been released from around my body. It felt freeing, as if I had let go of the heaviest balloon I carried, and now it was floating away towards the clouds… just floating away.

God, Sacred Sorrows, this place, and this true experience have brought me into a new being! A new beginning! Most of all, a renewed purpose in my life.

We are thankful to God that Diane met Him in such a meaningful way at one of our retreats. Thank you for sharing your experience, Diane. We pray others will meet God at our retreats, feel their burdens growing lighter, and receive comfort from God, their fellow retreatants, God's creation, and the leaders.

We have an upcoming Afternoon of Reflection & Remembrance (free) in Los Altos, CA, on January 28th, a Mother's Love & Loss Retreat in Tucson, AZ, on February 1st, and another Mother's Love & Loss Retreat in Los Altos, CA, on April 4th.

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Liliana Tavera
Liliana Tavera
02 janv.

Thank you Diane for sharing that amazing moment of healing. God is always willing to help us but are we willing to say yes to him...

I am glad that you said yes! to this retreat and keep saying yes to Him for He is always faithful....Praise the Lord !!

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